I just completed my one and only attempt at 14.4 and I am feeling somewhat frustrated about the whole thing.
Ever since the WOD was announced last Thursday, whenever I thought about it, I would get all jittery and nervous with butterflies in my stomach. I don’t know why, I just did.
14 minute AMRAP:
40 wall-ball shots, 20 / 14 lb.
30 cleans, 135 / 95 lb.
Kevin graciously offered to be my judge and Ben and the girls came to cheer me on, once again. 3-2-1-Go!
I think I finished the row around 4:30-5:00, I forgot to look at my time before moving on to the TTB. Here’s the thing. I had never even attempted a TTB before today, but I was hoping to get one. Just one. That’s all I wanted. I chose the lowest bar on the rig and set up 3×35# plate as a platform for my feet (yes, I’m that short)! I spent the remainder of the time TRYING to get a TTB. Some reps I was far off, some reps I was within an inch of the bar, but I NEVER ONCE TOUCHED IT WITH MY FEET. I know I tried my hardest and I should be content with the effort I put in, but it is still incredibly frustrating to not have managed to get a single rep in. My final score was 60 (for the calories rowed on the Erg).
I entered the games without any expectations, really, but it is starting to wear me down and, I will be honest, I’ll be glad when I’m done with next week’s workout. I know I’m not an athlete by any means, but it is still frustrating to be faced with failures week after week. It is annoying to be faced with the reality that your best effort isn’t good enough. Maybe I am not cut out for the Open, even though it’s supposed to be all for fun in my case. Maybe I get too competitive or I’m too hard on myself. Maybe it’s the constant switch between day and night shift, being constantly tired, the fact that my diet isn’t optimal or maybe I’m just in a mental funk at the moment, but right now, I’m spent and feel like I have nothing left in my tank. I know I should be proud to have scored at least on every Open WOD so far, but I find it hard to celebrate even that little victory. I am currently on my 6 days off from work and it will be lovely to get back to being just a mom, a wife and a crossfitter during those days.
I stayed after my heat to watch a few people and judge Kevin. It was his second attempt and he killed it! I was honoured to get to judge him. He really impressed me! Now that I’m done judging you, I can say it loud and clear, you got this Kev, you totally killed it! (He doesn’t like to be cheered on DURING the WODs)!
I will leave you with a two short videos which include a short video of my attempts at T2B and a glimpse into a future Crossfitter…